為何夢見他，
那好久好久以前分手的男孩又來到我夢中。
為何夢見他，
這男孩在我日記簿裡早已不留下痕跡。
為何夢見他 為何夢中他的眼神卻依然教我心跳
啊 為何夢見他 為何當我迷濛醒來卻含著眼淚。
- Aug 01 Wed 2007 02:35
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《為何夢見他》- 序
為何夢見他，
那好久好久以前分手的男孩又來到我夢中。
為何夢見他，
這男孩在我日記簿裡早已不留下痕跡。
為何夢見他 為何夢中他的眼神卻依然教我心跳
啊 為何夢見他 為何當我迷濛醒來卻含著眼淚。
- Jul 26 Thu 2007 00:51
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《只是需要你的安慰而已》
- Jul 24 Tue 2007 21:59
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《Super Hot Sunday》
近來腳趾總是在之前的水泡快要好時又起了水泡。 住家附近的家x福說近不近，說遠不遠，以平常速度，大概十五分鐘(走)路程吧! 如果開車，回到家怕又等上三個小時等不到位置，加上要省油，近來常走路去家附近的家x福添購日用品，幾乎每個星期一次。
沒有一雙可穿可走又清涼舒服的鞋。星期天特地沒有貪睡，讓P先騎車載我去附近的百貨公司買上次幫老媽子買鞋時看到的鞋。
- Jul 24 Tue 2007 03:09
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《流星》
- Jul 20 Fri 2007 01:26
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《Letting Go》
- Jul 10 Tue 2007 21:50
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《為反對而反對》
- Jul 04 Wed 2007 02:22
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《Words cut deeper than any knives could》
“Words cut deeper than any knives could”.
This is exactly why I still feel sad and guilty now.
Especially the one I hurt is dear dad.
This is exactly why I still feel sad and guilty now.
Especially the one I hurt is dear dad.
- Jul 03 Tue 2007 02:19
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《Jerky "Friends"》
Sometimes I find it’s hard for me to understand some people’s behaviour. Yesterday FOS and I had a conversion, at the start, it was just a usual chat, he said something about the effect of taking some medication. And then for some reasons, he mentioned Ms. Chang, he said that he did not think that Ms. Chang truly loved him, because she called his friend up few times when they were just being together. That did raise some doubts in my head,
“Just being together meaning just met each other? But when he just knew her, he said he was not interested in her and told her that he was going to introduce her to his friend. What was wrong about she called his friend?”
“Isn’t that pretty normal to date someone else before deciding whom a person wants to be with?”
“When they just knew each other, FOS did not want to admit to her or anyone that she was his girlfriend even they had sex. (Besides that, at the same time, he was going after me. Of course, this is not the issue here.) Since she never got his confirm answer saying that he wanted to be with her, what was so wrong to call his friend up and found herself another chance?”
So I just popped up the above question (besides the issues he was messing around with me) to him.
He was not able to answer some of the questions, especially concerning with the time issue, he just kept on saying that he did not remember. And he kept saying that Ms. Chang just wanted to find a person to accompany with because she was lonely. He just talked down on her and the way he talked about her sounded to me like he despised her a lot. When I mentioned that to him, he answered in such a despised tone and saying that she was not even half qualified for him as a girlfriend, and she was not worth it.
I told him that I felt quite absurd when he said that, since I and my other colleagues have seen her with one of her ex-boyfriend. She treated her ex-friend so nice that one would think he was her baby or something. How would she treated him-FOS so differently?
Then for no reason, FOS got pissed and said that he did not want to talk about Ms. Chang in any way and there was no need for me to understand everything.
Well… certainly I don’t need to understand or recognize or anything, but I remember I was not the one who started the topics involved Ms. Chang. He mentioned it first.
It’s just like a discussion, when someone said something, then you have questions, you ask. But his attitude made me feel uncomfortable, what he said was true, their drama was none of my business, he was the one who started the conversation, he was the one mentioned something he dislike first. The whole thing seems to me like :只許州官放火、不准百姓點燈。
Then I started to blame myself how I would have a good impression on him few years ago? Was I blinded or my eyes was covered with shit or what? It also made me released that I didn’t get involved with him personally any longer.
Today, I clicked the wrong nick on MSN list and accidentally sent a hi to one of my friend. This friend said he was surprised that I would say hi to him to initiate a conversation. I then sent him a smiling face and said no more. He then popped up a question asking me if my company got any job vacant, I ask why. He said one of his friend was looking for a job.
I started to ask him: “What kind of job is this friend looking for?””Where is his friend? Taiwan?” “Has this friend of his just graduated from school? “
He could barely answered my questions. He was only said that this female friend of his was just stopped her education since her family could no longer support her financially. She just got back to Taiwan, she wanted to find an administration job in IT field. “Why IT?” “Because if she could find an administration job in IT industry, she would find a chance to transfer into some jobs that are IT related.” This sounded quite surprising to me. I did not know that a person who was doing administration job could learn IT? Wow, then I guess if this is so, people who have majored in CS or EE and worked hard to graduated from it or spent time and money on some computer training school must be feeling like “spitting blood”. Well, I am sure there certainly are some talented people or geniuses who have the ability to do the administration job and then later transfer to the IT job with no difficulty, but if so, I think that those people would probably no need to do the administration job to waste their time, just simply find an IT job and do it.
Anyway, this friend of mine seemed not happy about me asking those questions, it sounded like he just asked casually without any seriousness, but I was not. It then became I was not happy about it because he wasted my time and I was working. Well, maybe it’s my fault, I should not have said hi accidentally in the first place, and that “hi” actually led me to the piss.
Is that I am the one who is erratic or they are? That’s why I somehow just find it hard to understand their behaviours.
p.s. If I called them “jerky friends”, does that mean I am one of the kind too? Oh, no… I won’t admit it and “friend” is just a term in general sense, does not necessarily mean they and I are real friends.
“Just being together meaning just met each other? But when he just knew her, he said he was not interested in her and told her that he was going to introduce her to his friend. What was wrong about she called his friend?”
“Isn’t that pretty normal to date someone else before deciding whom a person wants to be with?”
“When they just knew each other, FOS did not want to admit to her or anyone that she was his girlfriend even they had sex. (Besides that, at the same time, he was going after me. Of course, this is not the issue here.) Since she never got his confirm answer saying that he wanted to be with her, what was so wrong to call his friend up and found herself another chance?”
So I just popped up the above question (besides the issues he was messing around with me) to him.
He was not able to answer some of the questions, especially concerning with the time issue, he just kept on saying that he did not remember. And he kept saying that Ms. Chang just wanted to find a person to accompany with because she was lonely. He just talked down on her and the way he talked about her sounded to me like he despised her a lot. When I mentioned that to him, he answered in such a despised tone and saying that she was not even half qualified for him as a girlfriend, and she was not worth it.
I told him that I felt quite absurd when he said that, since I and my other colleagues have seen her with one of her ex-boyfriend. She treated her ex-friend so nice that one would think he was her baby or something. How would she treated him-FOS so differently?
Then for no reason, FOS got pissed and said that he did not want to talk about Ms. Chang in any way and there was no need for me to understand everything.
Well… certainly I don’t need to understand or recognize or anything, but I remember I was not the one who started the topics involved Ms. Chang. He mentioned it first.
It’s just like a discussion, when someone said something, then you have questions, you ask. But his attitude made me feel uncomfortable, what he said was true, their drama was none of my business, he was the one who started the conversation, he was the one mentioned something he dislike first. The whole thing seems to me like :只許州官放火、不准百姓點燈。
Then I started to blame myself how I would have a good impression on him few years ago? Was I blinded or my eyes was covered with shit or what? It also made me released that I didn’t get involved with him personally any longer.
Today, I clicked the wrong nick on MSN list and accidentally sent a hi to one of my friend. This friend said he was surprised that I would say hi to him to initiate a conversation. I then sent him a smiling face and said no more. He then popped up a question asking me if my company got any job vacant, I ask why. He said one of his friend was looking for a job.
I started to ask him: “What kind of job is this friend looking for?””Where is his friend? Taiwan?” “Has this friend of his just graduated from school? “
He could barely answered my questions. He was only said that this female friend of his was just stopped her education since her family could no longer support her financially. She just got back to Taiwan, she wanted to find an administration job in IT field. “Why IT?” “Because if she could find an administration job in IT industry, she would find a chance to transfer into some jobs that are IT related.” This sounded quite surprising to me. I did not know that a person who was doing administration job could learn IT? Wow, then I guess if this is so, people who have majored in CS or EE and worked hard to graduated from it or spent time and money on some computer training school must be feeling like “spitting blood”. Well, I am sure there certainly are some talented people or geniuses who have the ability to do the administration job and then later transfer to the IT job with no difficulty, but if so, I think that those people would probably no need to do the administration job to waste their time, just simply find an IT job and do it.
Anyway, this friend of mine seemed not happy about me asking those questions, it sounded like he just asked casually without any seriousness, but I was not. It then became I was not happy about it because he wasted my time and I was working. Well, maybe it’s my fault, I should not have said hi accidentally in the first place, and that “hi” actually led me to the piss.
Is that I am the one who is erratic or they are? That’s why I somehow just find it hard to understand their behaviours.
p.s. If I called them “jerky friends”, does that mean I am one of the kind too? Oh, no… I won’t admit it and “friend” is just a term in general sense, does not necessarily mean they and I are real friends.
- Jun 19 Tue 2007 02:11
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《Bad Day》
四天的連假，因為P得上班，我幾乎都待在家裡，完全浪費了這四天天氣晴朗、陽光燦爛的好天氣。
網路上的新聞寫著明天汽油每公升漲價0.4元。我的小藍剛好快沒油了，於是我開著我的小藍出門去加油。
正當我要告訴加油的工讀生加啥油時，工讀生說油箱門打不開，要我打開中控。中控!! 我的中控鎖早在幾天前就發現故障了，這下慘了，油箱打不開。我只好開了未加油的小藍離開加油站。
原本以為中控鎖壞了，頂多開門不方便而已，卻不知竟然連油也無法加了。這下非得花錢修不可了。
回到家附近等未畫線的停車位，附近的巷子來來回回，我繞了不下五圈，等了近兩個鐘頭，始終未見到任何車子移動，肚子早已咕嚕叫，又急著上廁所。最後只好將車子停在劃線停車格。在等車位得過程中，因為要省已到紅線的油，我將冷氣關掉，窗戶打開，手腳被蚊子叮了至少五個包。
夜晚P整理東西後，要將行李箱推進床底時，竟直接將行李箱輾過我的腳趾。As if my bad day was not bad enough. S**t!
OK. My bad day ended hopefully and two things I've learned today,
1.沒中控鎖，無法加油。
2.即使坐在車裡面，窗戶沒關，還是要噴防蚊液。@_@
網路上的新聞寫著明天汽油每公升漲價0.4元。我的小藍剛好快沒油了，於是我開著我的小藍出門去加油。
正當我要告訴加油的工讀生加啥油時，工讀生說油箱門打不開，要我打開中控。中控!! 我的中控鎖早在幾天前就發現故障了，這下慘了，油箱打不開。我只好開了未加油的小藍離開加油站。
原本以為中控鎖壞了，頂多開門不方便而已，卻不知竟然連油也無法加了。這下非得花錢修不可了。
回到家附近等未畫線的停車位，附近的巷子來來回回，我繞了不下五圈，等了近兩個鐘頭，始終未見到任何車子移動，肚子早已咕嚕叫，又急著上廁所。最後只好將車子停在劃線停車格。在等車位得過程中，因為要省已到紅線的油，我將冷氣關掉，窗戶打開，手腳被蚊子叮了至少五個包。
夜晚P整理東西後，要將行李箱推進床底時，竟直接將行李箱輾過我的腳趾。As if my bad day was not bad enough. S**t!
OK. My bad day ended hopefully and two things I've learned today,
1.沒中控鎖，無法加油。
2.即使坐在車裡面，窗戶沒關，還是要噴防蚊液。@_@
- May 23 Wed 2007 01:30
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《一個人的晚餐》
這一個月來，每天的晚餐幾乎都是一個人在外面吃。 一個人的時候，不太喜歡在外面吃飯。 一個人去書店，一個人喝咖啡，一個人逛街，我都可以覺得怡然自得。唯獨就是不太喜歡一個人 在外面 吃飯。
- May 09 Wed 2007 01:28
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《Fuck up!》
After a tense and restless morning, we finally got our paycheck in the afternoon on Monday. I soon paid my credit card bill and rental. They were overdue already.
Today our boss appeared in the office, and our other boss appeared too. Interestingly both of them did not show up coincidentally last Friday, the day that we should have our paychecks.
When it comes to the pay day every month, they would both be disappeared if there may be problems with our salaries.
Today our boss appeared in the office, and our other boss appeared too. Interestingly both of them did not show up coincidentally last Friday, the day that we should have our paychecks.
When it comes to the pay day every month, they would both be disappeared if there may be problems with our salaries.
- May 04 Fri 2007 01:24
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《I just cannot take it anymore!!!》
Ever since the beginning of this year, I would start to get more and more anxious during the first few days of every month. The feeling would only be released when I see it coming.
What is it that making me so anxious and worried?
It's our paycheck, which we have to use to pay the rental, credit card bill and all sort of bill and expenses, and which keeps us survive.
Ever since the beginning of this year, I would start to get anxious during the first few days of every month. The feeling would only be released when I actually see my paycheck.
Our boss has already delayed to pay our salary twice. The first time was just a weekend delayed, the 2nd time was delayed for a week. It also meant that I paid my bills and rental late, and I also had to console others to calm them down, though I felt so worried during the time.
Our boss did not even show up in the office. He neither answered the phone calls nor return our calls.
I got really pissed off till he showed up and explained what was going on to everyone in the office.
I had a feeling that there might be a problem with our salary again yesterday and I got a little worried.
We were supposed to get our salary today, and after 3:30 pm, we haven't got our salary notice, I knew something was wrong just as I thought.
I asked our HR, she told me that the boss has tranferred the money into some other uses and could not get them back on time for our payoff. I got so pissed, this is the third time that it happens.
Our irresponsible boss has done it again. He always said things and made promises, but almost never kept them. I now hardly believe the words he says.
Everytime he has done some messes, I have to try so hard to clean up the messes such as consoling others even though I have some bad feelings of my own. I have to hide them and answer all those doubtable questions.
I resent these and I despise him.
I am thinking about quitting. If not for my own financial problem, I would have quit.
I don't know how long I can put up with these shits.
Or maybe I should really quit, so he would be serious about his own words and behaviours, and not to take the advantages of his employees.
What is it that making me so anxious and worried?
It's our paycheck, which we have to use to pay the rental, credit card bill and all sort of bill and expenses, and which keeps us survive.
Ever since the beginning of this year, I would start to get anxious during the first few days of every month. The feeling would only be released when I actually see my paycheck.
Our boss has already delayed to pay our salary twice. The first time was just a weekend delayed, the 2nd time was delayed for a week. It also meant that I paid my bills and rental late, and I also had to console others to calm them down, though I felt so worried during the time.
Our boss did not even show up in the office. He neither answered the phone calls nor return our calls.
I got really pissed off till he showed up and explained what was going on to everyone in the office.
I had a feeling that there might be a problem with our salary again yesterday and I got a little worried.
We were supposed to get our salary today, and after 3:30 pm, we haven't got our salary notice, I knew something was wrong just as I thought.
I asked our HR, she told me that the boss has tranferred the money into some other uses and could not get them back on time for our payoff. I got so pissed, this is the third time that it happens.
Our irresponsible boss has done it again. He always said things and made promises, but almost never kept them. I now hardly believe the words he says.
Everytime he has done some messes, I have to try so hard to clean up the messes such as consoling others even though I have some bad feelings of my own. I have to hide them and answer all those doubtable questions.
I resent these and I despise him.
I am thinking about quitting. If not for my own financial problem, I would have quit.
I don't know how long I can put up with these shits.
Or maybe I should really quit, so he would be serious about his own words and behaviours, and not to take the advantages of his employees.
